J crew no more

Ugghhh the dress I wanted at j crew is gone . I knew this was going to happen to me good things like that dress at that price rarley happen to me : ( then Alan tells me to go to santee I hate him. I don't know if this month could get any worse I'm really trying to prep myself emotionally for the last couple days of this month cuz I'm going to be a huge reck! Especially if I do bad on my midterms this week.

So Sad

I wake up and get ready for school-all alone
Go to class- boring
Study in the library-all alone
Go to class-boring
Come home-all alone and bored

This is the worst way to spend the amazing month of July.
Best part of my days are bike rides to and from school, I find new short cuts everyday (follow other bikers).
But I just keep trying to tell myself its going to be worth it when i'm in Spain, unless I hate it and want to go home or something crazy happens, because this misery is worth nothing.
-KiKi

uggghhhh II

Man I strted this new acne rejeme..or wtvs and it sucks it is really drying out my skin i feel like a raisin. I keep checking my email becuse i think gates is going to email me..but they havent I realllly want to go to the asb thing i think it would be a blast. I have a test tommorrw for bio but before that I have work. Its a sad day that im looking more forward to the test than to go to work. I fel off the gym wagon I went a total of maybe 5 times and then midterms came along and there went gym flying out the window. Its only week 3 and i feel like ive been here forever its time for another break. But what sucks is the next break will be in a monday and that saturday I have a midterm so its not even really a holiday. Well ill stop my complaining and get back to work. PS chem is not even part of my major well partly becuse i dont have a major but even the one i think im doing..nope not part of that. Vet school med school? yes but am i dont that??? i dont know..uuuggghh....
KIKI

ugghh

It is so frustrating to know that you know something and then not do it well. Today was also my first day of work, what a drag. I cant wait until Jazmine's birthday i hope she likes her gifts im really excited about them, i think i like them more than shes going to like it herself lol. I'm so nervous to go to spain. If I actuallly get to go that would be the wildest thing ever im going to be gone for suhc a long time, but im sure its going to be a great times and i wont regret it. back to studying ugghh...
-KIKI

Insane in the Membrane

Its a sad quarter when I can' think of which days suck more, MWF of TTH. Yesterday I got an email back from GMS and the lady told me some very surprising news. She said that she thought I was a very good writer. She said she reads a lot of applications like the one i sent to her, and she said she was impressed with my writing. I was all whhhaaat?? lil ol me good writing??!? But she also told me I should take advantage of school and the scholarship and I should take an extra year to graduate. I don't really know how I feel about this. I mean its not like I know exactly what I want to do and want to go out and do it already. Money isn't an issue. But I would feel kinda like a loser, while I don't want to be here for an extra year...I don't really know where I want to be.
Yesterday there was an article in the ny post or something taking about what a fail law school was, and it was really depressing. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell Alan about it or if I didn't...but it turns out he had already read it anyways. it was about a man who was like 250,000 in debt, I mean he was kinda ridic because he went to italy for a semester on his loans, but still. the article also mentioned hard it was to find jobs right now, I mean I guess its hard for every profession but its sad to hear about someone who went to college, then still furthered their education and is still can only find temp jobs making $10/h. So we stared talking about what would be his other options if he didn't get into the law schools he wanted to get into and after like 20 min of me throwing out and rejecting not only my ideas, but even his own alan said:"Im just going to be a cop" lol, I laughed ever.
Ugh time to go to physics..im so happy that I only ahve this quarter and the next and then Im done with it cuz physics drives me innnnsssaaaannneee!!!

It's bright and early... And I'm up doing Econ is there a worst way to start off the day? Well I'm tryin this new thing where I'm going to wake up at 8 even when I Donny have class. Well see how long that lasts. I did get new "tapestry" aka cloth to put over my window so it's alot brighter and easier to wake up in the morning. Need to keep reading ttyl
-Kiki

things im excited for!!

Finishing this quarter
being summer!
starting wooork!
going to sungod!!!
getting paid again!
...
thats alll lol
i have no clean clothes i hope i remember to take me clothes home this weekend lol
my room is a huge mess and i have like negative desire to clean it lol i bet joohee hates me
i've been listing to alot of pandora lately, so i've started liking some new artist...lupe and talib kweli
but i hate when they put really ghetto stuff and then they tell me i cant skip anymore, im like then why do you keep giving me this ghetto stuff uggh

one this that really bugs me is when ppl knock on the door and none answers ugggggg!
its like if you have a freind coming you know they are coming why dont you get up and get the door its ridiculous!
well anyyywhoo i have a math quiz tommorrow so got to bruch up on my dot and cross product : )

XoXo-kiki